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this weekend marks my first colombian disease, a milestone for sure. This one is a stomach virus that rendered me useless all weekend. i spent my days sleeping or curled up in a miserable fetal position, sweating sin, dealing with cramps and taking disgusting medicine. when i did move, i stumbled deliriously through my apartment, moving downstairs to pick up a food order i barely ate or the aforementioned disgusting medicine.

when i was doing all my stumbling, i stubbed my toe and i am worried that i broke it. i really hope not. it is swollen and discolored for sure, but it isn't purple, and i can move it, though its stiff and painful.

the disease that almost took me out in korea was, what i thought, was pneumonia. i spent a week or two almost bedridden. they plied me with medicine-- both traditional korean and modern western-- but the doctor told me early on that no, this is just the common cold.

my first year in china, too, had a cold that sent me to Diyu. this time, i was better prepared though, and i think my immune system was used to asia by that point.

i'm attracted to this Brazilian scientist woman I met the other day at a rooftop party. She's only here for a few more months, but she's got that hot velma vibe that i'm really attracted to, and it's hard to keep myself from pouncing on her when she starts talking about ionic bonds. i can't tell how attracted she is to me, because for every three or four positive signs she sends me, she drops one negative one. i think she might have a boyfriend back in brazil? she told a cabbie this in spanish, i think to get him off of her and her friends' backs, but hasn't talked about him in conversation to me at all, and her insta doesn't have any pictures of guys other than her brother.

hard for me to tell. this is the first person i have found myself romantically attracted to and felt like pursuing for... a few years, now. i'd love to have a girlfriend. it's been so long, and i love our banter. she keeps asking me out to things! we were supposed to see a movie this week, but obviously i canceled because of the existence-threatening stomach virus and all.