win

 AHHHHHHHHH

I move countries on Tuesday night. I'm going from Shanghai, China to Krakow, Poland. Jesus it's hard to leave. Countries hate it when you move around. 

I'm honestly keeping up with every duty that I have, but christ there's SO MUCH TO DO. covid test, bank accounts, phone shit, book lodgings for the first 2 weeks or whatever in poland-- It doesn't help that my bank back home keeps flagging everything I do as fraud and boxing me out of my card usage-- find a new place to live, get a job, figure out how to do everything all over again, start over from scratch, own nothing except what I'm wearing an a backpack or whatever.

Also saying goodbye to everyone is hard. Ashleigh, my neighbor, cried last night. I'm going to write her a letter on the inside cover of a book I'm leaving her. She held me up through the death of my student, and I held her as she cried a few times this year. I'm going to miss the fuck out of her. That wasn't even the last time I saw her! I'm visiting her today at our regular hookah spot for a final goodbye after my covid test. 

Deal's one of my best friends in this hemisphere. We were in the band, we play videogames together, and I've invited him to speak at these drunken PPT night things that I throw. 

i want to meet someone and fall in a GOOD love when i move
i want to make a new social circle
i want to be in a real life community 
i want to look forward to work again
i want to write all winter long
i want to join a yoga class

i have so many hopes riding on this move and god damnit i need a good life-changing win.